Goliath
Mark of the Beast ~ Sign of the Initiate
Claw and teeth marks are draped across his shoulder and chest. He bares the mark of the Beast and lives eternally with iTs Venom inside. To the Mojave, this is the sign of the initiate, the breaking free from paved roads to forge a direct relationship to one's True Will, the Divine Nature.
Lyrics:
Mother, my lover, you’ve left me scarred,
You’ve broken my heart,
left me naked in dark
now I'm eaten alive
by these monsters inside me
"Why do you betray me?"
Shatter my mind,
and all mirror of her memory
all this wasted time
everything that we could be
I thought you were divine
and it was God who spoke to me
but it all was just a lie
Now my heart lives in pieces,
shards on the ground,
it's more than you baby
I do not know how
to understand
and trust myself
So, why, do you lie, to me
So, why, do you lie, to me
I thought we were made for forever
You left us in the grave
I thought we were made for
Super fast cars and Anomaly visa
You left us in the grave
WhyYou leave me here to die
Now I'm bleeding out Alive
I feel so sick inside
Ever since you left,
you left a hole in me baby
WhyYou leave me here to die
Now I'm bleeding out Alive
I feel so sick inside
Ever since you left,
you left a hole in me baby
I fear something's crawled inside
Now I'm losing my will to be
Aliveand I'm bleeding out tonight
There’s a monster in me
Now I'm losing my will to be
Aliveand I'm bleeding out tonight
There’s a monster in me
GOLIATH
There's a demon, I don't know
how to fight it, yeah
something's got my soul
This weight is far too much to hold
There’s a sickness in me
GOLIATH
A venom, I don't know
how to fight it
Devil's taking hold
This weight is far too much to hold
What is your sound?
Why are you bleeding?
Why do you scream my name?
There’s a Monster in me
GOLIATH
A Demon, I don't know
how to fight it
Something's got my Soul
This weight is far too much to hold
Shatter me, the sun, Obliteration
Lord I've never felt so Alive
Rage the fire flood (yeah)
blood running to ring her
Thunder is the Killer of the Night
So ask me,
Why do you defy me God?
Why? Why? Why?
All emotions collide inside me at once.
I collapse in your brilliant wrath
Who am I to defy the force of a God?
I beg and I plee, Father what do I do with this energy?
A voice from the deep speaks to me:
“The same energy which is the tsunami
pinning you to the ocean’s floor,
is the very wave you shall learn to ride.
Be patient my son, your time will come.”
Find the Key
Utilize the Frustration as the Guiding Light
Where you suffer because you cannot see,
Feed.
Where you are not now, you will be.
Find yourself.
Find Me.
There is a wisdom in this suffering, an invitation, wherein the venom lies the remedy.
I don’t know why I lose the way, but I’ve come to find it a part of the Path- traversing the dark side of the moon where the Dream, the object of my desire, the Mountain to which I trek, is veiled in night, sheathed in shadow from me. I wonder if it will ever return. I wonder if it was ever really there in the first place.
With everything I am, I’ve tried but I fall each time to the same place, in the same way. I’ve crashed the ship again. You let me down my friend. I must be doing something wrong, but I’m blind to see, what is it that’s wrong with me?
I’m sinking, and straining not to reach the bottom where lies my greatest suffering. I don’t want to fall into that dark goodnight. I’ve tried with everything I am to fight, but your gravity is so much greater than me, than anything I could ever be. Who am I to deny the force of a God where this darkness is my Destiny.
After so much struggle, I release. I give in. I give up. And the flood washes over me. The ocean pulls me under, and I’m one again with infinity, the womb of the Mother. I’m in deep sleep, where here I hold no memory...
And then by some force of extraordinary Mystery, in the pitch of night, I see a star. It starts with one, and then a few, and then all the lights turn on. The ship’s engines are revving. I feel my Self, my friend, and together we see the Mountain, same one, same sun, and start strapping our boots back on again humming your words, “Oh what an adventure.”
And this time, there’s something different. Something changes when we make contact with the bottom. There’s a door.
What if the mountain is far larger than I knew to see? Perhaps it had to shatter my mind, my lens so more light could reach inside my eye. I’d wish this upon no one, but admire the sense, there’s more presence in me, more life breathing through than there was before. Was it always here? Am I just now noticing?
What is this soft whisper sending chills down my neck, your lips, cold as ice, upon my breast, calling my heart to beat harder for you. My desire, an ember burning through my chest, opening my flesh, each step upon your mountain.
I don’t know why I lose the way, but I’ve come to find it a part of the Path- traversing the dark side of the moon where the Dream, the object of my desire, the Mountain to which I trek, is veiled in night, sheathed in shadow from me. I wonder if it will ever return. I wonder if it was ever really there in the first place.
With everything I am, I’ve tried but I fall each time to the same place, in the same way. I’ve crashed the ship again. You let me down my friend. I must be doing something wrong, but I’m blind to see, what is it that’s wrong with me?
I’m sinking, and straining not to reach the bottom where lies my greatest suffering. I don’t want to fall into that dark goodnight. I’ve tried with everything I am to fight, but your gravity is so much greater than me, than anything I could ever be. Who am I to deny the force of a God where this darkness is my Destiny.
After so much struggle, I release. I give in. I give up. And the flood washes over me. The ocean pulls me under, and I’m one again with infinity, the womb of the Mother. I’m in deep sleep, where here I hold no memory...
And then by some force of extraordinary Mystery, in the pitch of night, I see a star. It starts with one, and then a few, and then all the lights turn on. The ship’s engines are revving. I feel my Self, my friend, and together we see the Mountain, same one, same sun, and start strapping our boots back on again humming your words, “Oh what an adventure.”
And this time, there’s something different. Something changes when we make contact with the bottom. There’s a door.
What if the mountain is far larger than I knew to see? Perhaps it had to shatter my mind, my lens so more light could reach inside my eye. I’d wish this upon no one, but admire the sense, there’s more presence in me, more life breathing through than there was before. Was it always here? Am I just now noticing?
What is this soft whisper sending chills down my neck, your lips, cold as ice, upon my breast, calling my heart to beat harder for you. My desire, an ember burning through my chest, opening my flesh, each step upon your mountain.
Photography in Collaboration with Oscar Zabala
Nature of the Prism
Light, creative energy, shines through the prism of AhziRa.
I reach my hands into the Mystery, and play the cosmic frequency,
riding my craft, sailing seas of Creation
A Creature comes to me, a being of an exquisite nature
I do not choose the sound which arrives,
I merely assemble it to the best of my ability,
into the most beautiful form of its authentic composition.
After much time and great effort with love and care,
A being is born into this world
which before was not there
I reach my hands into the Mystery, and play the cosmic frequency,
riding my craft, sailing seas of Creation
A Creature comes to me, a being of an exquisite nature
I do not choose the sound which arrives,
I merely assemble it to the best of my ability,
into the most beautiful form of its authentic composition.
After much time and great effort with love and care,
A being is born into this world
which before was not there
Goliath Report
This is the Mission Briefing. It was an invitation from the Dharma Artist Collective. I love the format:
- Purpose
- Practice/Process
- Product (shared with the world)
I like that I made it look sexy.
- Purpose
- Practice/Process
- Product (shared with the world)
I like that I made it look sexy.
During this Expedition, one of my practices was to repeat a mantra everyday. I would tweak it everyday, evolving the presence of connection, orientation, and aliveness. This is what emerged after 45 days in iteration:
“I am perfectly in time.
I Cultivate the Presence of God Inside my Body and illuminate iT in all others. I am Jayd Ahssiah, the breath of Mojave, DreamWalking AhziRa.
I stand upon strong, fertile musical ground, facilitating the lightning of VimanAhssiah unto this Earth, blooming AiA through this stream of powerful musical performances. I love sharing this Gift, this act of Evolution for others. I am a wholly embodied practitioner of this Sacred Sound, and I recognize it as Gods greatest Gift. I am profoundly in Love with this music pouring through me.
Sharing iT feels Natural and Authentic. It brings me Joy and Radiance. As I release this work, others all around the world gather to absorb iT and are nourished by the sun of AhziRa, the bloom of AiA.
I am Financially Free in this Creation, Liberation. I embrace my Responsibility to share the Work and embody myself as an entrepreneur, flying the Angel of AhziRa for all my many relations.
God Guide me. I am your son, your soldier. Teach me how to be here, to open my voice, to be One with your Mastery, your Mystery, God Guides me to give love to this world and all Her creation.”
I Cultivate the Presence of God Inside my Body and illuminate iT in all others. I am Jayd Ahssiah, the breath of Mojave, DreamWalking AhziRa.
I stand upon strong, fertile musical ground, facilitating the lightning of VimanAhssiah unto this Earth, blooming AiA through this stream of powerful musical performances. I love sharing this Gift, this act of Evolution for others. I am a wholly embodied practitioner of this Sacred Sound, and I recognize it as Gods greatest Gift. I am profoundly in Love with this music pouring through me.
Sharing iT feels Natural and Authentic. It brings me Joy and Radiance. As I release this work, others all around the world gather to absorb iT and are nourished by the sun of AhziRa, the bloom of AiA.
I am Financially Free in this Creation, Liberation. I embrace my Responsibility to share the Work and embody myself as an entrepreneur, flying the Angel of AhziRa for all my many relations.
God Guide me. I am your son, your soldier. Teach me how to be here, to open my voice, to be One with your Mastery, your Mystery, God Guides me to give love to this world and all Her creation.”
Watering the Desert
{EP}
Silence
“Silence” is the Sensual Suicide, the release of me, all “I“ know myself to be.
Despite the paralyzing fear in my body screaming with every ounce of intuition not to go, "Silence" is the choice to cut through the voices and step over the edge- beyond the threshold of being, in through death, I enter the Mystery.
"Silence" is falling into cold water. My body breaks in the shock of immersion- eyes wide shut, screaming with no sound, thrashing in the deep as the water's serraded fingers of ice wrap their tendrils around my body. Suffocating snakes pulling me down, penetrating my being with daggers of lightning, freezing my veins into leaden ice.
Silence is the sound of hypervenilation. Breathing deep, iT is the ecstasy beneath my sufferring, the moment of control's release, inside shabari where the ropes are tongue tied, twisted in my knots of lie, and I stop the fight, giving my body as a gift to gravity. It is the Self in obliterated psyche where I am entirely consumed by something far greater than I could ever see.
Silence is the end of all I know my self to be. Here in death I come alive.
To Die with You
Siyah stands upon the edge in the highest point of his castle, tears streaming down his eyes, the prisoner of paradise has come to greet his suicide. He is the broken king, and through his eyes he sees, what once was his beloved kingdom now consumed in black sea…
Many years ago, Siyah awoke in a pool of blood within a magnificent tower, a Magick fortress of highly advanced technology. As he rose to consciousness, he held no memory of who he was before or what he'd come to do. All the castle's doors were sealed to the outside world, and there was only one window with a balcony overlooking a beautiful kingdom, of which, Siyah's tower stood at the heart.
It was clear to him the tower was meant to serve as a beacon emanating Life, as the sun casts light, to the people of the city, but Siyah, the sole operator, had no idea how to activate the tower's energy and give nourishment to the people it was built to serve.
He felt the Spirit of the tower, a Magick essence coarsing through its corridors as a surging river carrying the voice of Life from the other side, but in every effort Siyah came to commune with the force, he was met with rejection, either utter indifference or immense agression. He'd pray to the presence everyday, calling upon God to guide him, to instill within him the awarness he'd need to commune with the force of the tower, but every prayer was met with rejection, either utter indifference or violent agression. On the rare occasion the Spirit acknowledged him, iT dove into him, debhilitating him in horrific possession, pinning him to the ground and flooding him with all the pain of the people of his people's lives, becoming more torturous every time.
People gathered outside Siyah's fortress, small at first, though their numbers grew by the day. He saw them from the window, but dared not go out to the balcony until he understood how to engage the Magick and activate the heart of the city. They pleaded for sun, begging their king to commune with the Gods, to sing the song which summons the rain, but all their cries were said in vain.
Their growing voices kept him up all through the nights, becoming louder and louder, as did the currents of Spirit pouring through the castle, and his passion begging God for mercy from his pain, where he was the king failing his kingdom everyday.
The people's cries of sadness became rage. They began pulling the city apart and setting their homes aflame outside the balcony of the king who hid away. The notion of going outside and facing their hatred became an absolute impossibility, the Demon who shackled him in chain.
Without sunlight or rain, all the crops began to die and so too the voices faded away. The last to hold onto life ensured there was nothing but ash left in the glorious kingdom, and then one day, one horrid day, all the voices ceased to speak and the only one alive was the broken king.
Ashes to ashes, the world has burned to the ground, and now that there is nobody to see, Siyah walks onto the balcony, to see the world from the outside. He wails and cries to the tragedy of his life, and from the outside, his cries and his tears call forth the rain, mixing with the ashen city into a dark, thick, tar-like sludge becomes a sea, and the rain keeps falling.
Hear now, a storm rages on all sides. Everyone in this city has died by the neglecting hands of their silent king who now, for the first and final time, arrives to be seen by not a single eye but that of God's infinity. Here is where he comes to die.
AiArrive to greet my Suicide.
Shala {Freestyle}
Death strikes and I am consumed by the sea, a flash of Dmt, my psyche dissipates into infinity as a rain drop falls into the ocean. In the belly of the Beast {666}, AiAm one with my entirety. Everything the I can be is everything the eye can see. Our Gods Dream in endeless sea, imagining infinity's horizon.
Eye see all timelines of my life laid out in front of me, all streams of interweaving melodies in perfect harmony strum through the symphony of Silence, emanating outwardly in rays of light cast from the blazing sun.
One ray approaches me, glowing as a grieving soul calling me to speak. Eye see the sad story of Siyah, the greatest tragedy of a story unspoken, a beautiful potential never brought to fruition, a fruit plucked prematurely from life, ripped from the living before its time. My Eye is a mirror reflecting the song of the sea, a blazing sun wherein the venom lies the remedy, and he burns into oblivion.
Thunder rages in holy war as his soul approaches life again, his ship cascading through the the Heaven's storm. iTs voice breathes echoing, foreshadowing for the dawn begun:
"Invocations of a new nation, daily degredation of our soils invitation, elation, celebration, new nation, we be the birthing of body of Gaia, arise the fire, ai empire, running to the floor everything I see fallen before, the forefathers of our founding nation, we are the degredation of our digital age we come into the coincidence of coinciding incidence I am the homocide, suicide bombing, baptizing, everything I see all around me is thriving, fucking flourishing through the dream, I am the ocean unburdening, everything that I see in my dreams, storm walking, breathing in the fire of an odyssey empire, rage and rage and set the forests ablaze, I can see the king hear unburdening the cage."
A star falls down to Gaia.
Inversion Insidium
The Book of AhziRa
a Multimedia Digital NovelIntro
In a far off periphery of the cosmos, just beyond the known Universe, a most unusual event begins to occur. It looks like a shimmer, refracting the expression of space and time but taking on no qualities of itself visible to the eye or any instrument. It behaves in a paradoxical manner, absorbing all matter inside it, like a black hole, while simultaneously taking on the emanative qualities of a star radiating an unknown substance, X.
In the center of the Known Universe, the Hiii Council gather in great urgency to discuss how to address this extraordinary phenomena. Because they know near nothing of this space and it defies what they know of all others, they've deemed it “The Anomaly". Its discussion arouses a great deal of unease because the field is growing at a rapid rate, and hurling through space towards them is something they do not understand in the slightest.
Amidst great haste, the Council decides to send in one of their best scientific explorers to observe the Anomaly and report back what it is and how to destroy it.
1: Enter Anomaly
AhziRa passes event horizon, entering the gravitational field of Anomaly. The field is so immense it has already swallowed many suns and their orbiting planetary bodies. Each moment inside the field, time speeds up, compounding upon itself as the ship and all surrounding cosmic form are pulled faster into the Anomaly. He knew at a certain point, his ship's engines would not be strong enough to turn back, further in, not even light would escape. He would have to be mindful of this. His mission was to get in, observe, learn, and report back.
With Story at the helm, AhziRa travels to the many planets effected by the Anomaly. Upon landing in each world, he studies the land, using Wolv6 Drones to collect audio, visual, and scientific data of the world he observed. Then he returns to his ship to assimilate the data and generate a rendering for analysis.
The first worlds Story landed upon were unremarkable, posessing no noticeable changes. The only noteable occurences were annoyances within his software. His Wolv6 Drones were first, they would spend time lingering upon certain plants, stopping in flight, stuttering mid-sentence in diaolgue with Story. They would get stuck facing their cameras on one another.
As their issues persisted and Story's frustration increased, he decided it was time to pull them apart, and fix whatever kinks were happening inside. The drones were designed by him from the ground up to optimize his needs during inter-planetary assessment. He was a consultant for the Galactic Council among many other high end clients, summoned for his services assessing worlds and optimizing their Terraformation. He was selected for this job because he understood large planetary ecological systems, and his science produced results supporting the wealthy shape life in their worlds.
Pulling the drones apart, Story noticed a light, filmy substance, like a reflective layer of humidity, developing within the internal mechanics, primarily upon the mother board. He cleaned them off. And re-assembled the drones. They seemed to be in working order.
The first worlds Story landed upon were unremarkable, posessing no noticeable changes. The only noteable occurences were annoyances within his software. His Wolv6 Drones were first, they would spend time lingering upon certain plants, stopping in flight, stuttering mid-sentence in diaolgue with Story. They would get stuck facing their cameras on one another.
As their issues persisted and Story's frustration increased, he decided it was time to pull them apart, and fix whatever kinks were happening inside. The drones were designed by him from the ground up to optimize his needs during inter-planetary assessment. He was a consultant for the Galactic Council among many other high end clients, summoned for his services assessing worlds and optimizing their Terraformation. He was selected for this job because he understood large planetary ecological systems, and his science produced results supporting the wealthy shape life in their worlds.
Pulling the drones apart, Story noticed a light, filmy substance, like a reflective layer of humidity, developing within the internal mechanics, primarily upon the mother board. He cleaned them off. And re-assembled the drones. They seemed to be in working order.
The Renderings
As Story's 28th rendering nears fruition, he reflects upon the voyage of completed missions since entering the Anomaly. The Control Surface casts a 360 degree projection of the completed renderings into a field around him, orbiting him like a sun, with the first the furthest, and his current composition in process, most near to him.
Each rendering is composed to display a curated report of the realm. It may be played through a sonic lens- reviewed as it was assembled through time, or seen visually-all the information arranged at once within the greater context of the whole network.
He swipes his hand, spinning the field to its furthest composition and presses play, listening to each piece's information via sonic and visual transmission as he studies the data. Each rendering acts as a node in a network, a chapter in a book whose story is a riddle containing the mysterious nature of this space. There's a certain beauty he finds in the data so finely arranged, color-coded, concise, correct. Each rendering shares a similar composition, though as they near closer to the present, they become more intricate and complex, building datasets out of information the ship's sensory inputs weren't initially designed to collect. When Story first notices this, he presumes it to be a fluke in the dataset, but as he scrolls through the collection, the pattern repeats and amplifies.
He scrolls to the point within the data he first begins to notice the complexification, and he pulls up a flight log he'd recorded of himself during that time to jog his memory around the time things began to change. A video of himself plays back in which he shares:
7th
"I'm not entirely sure how long I've been here. The time tables in Arlea, our ship’s AI, are shifting around back and forth, and I haven't been able to identify the software issue yet. If I were to guess, I would say its been about 4 days. However, I've created 7 renderings, and given the size of their datasets, I would certainly have spent at least a day on each. As I scroll through them, I can recall recording each sample of data in fine, and actually quite exquisite detail, but it feels as if my internal timeline has been re-arranged."
9th
He scrolls to another video correlating with the timeline of his 9th planetary expedition:
"There is a fluke in the data, a gap, a drop of logic. At first, I attributed it to a glitch within the Wolv6s, as they've been acting strange, but now I see it repeating within the rendering assimilation process which runs upon an entirely different software system. It's like there are micro tears, aberrations within the space here causing DNA to deviate from its origin, either merging with surrounding species or deviating into something very "other" from its traditional habitat. It appears life is evolving at an unprecedented rate, adapting to a phenomena I am still unable to perceive."
He pauses the video and waves his hand to scroll further through his flight logs. This one was recorded upon the 11th Planet:
11th
"All material within the Field of Anomaly is changing in ways humanity has never before recorded. This is true even of our own technology.
AhziRa’s Wolv6 Drone Sensors, were designed to measure sound, space, and light to compose a 5 dimensional rendering for analysis. Now, the samplings are becoming more complex than the technology was ever designed to do.
The sensors themselves are changing in miraculous ways which...," he stutters, stopping himself for a moment as if choking on a phrase,"which... are contrary to our understanding of natural law." There is defeat in his eyes as he says this feels his scientific mind desperately grasping for its guard rails. He fears the data has been compromised, but proceeds, "The supplementary data we're pulling in fits seamlessly into the renderings', filling in pockets of information that don't track with coherence.
The renderings are built upon a system of Logic. The supplementary data pulled in through the self-iterating sensors fits into the train of logic, further describing the manner in which matter is transforming, but it only further skews it into absurdity the dataset as a whole into obscurity."
His voice trailed off, and he stared dimly into the camera. There were dark circles beneath his eyes. He looked worn and somehow aged in what appeared to be a short passage of time. Story stayed on the video, experiencing himself then stare into his eyes now, saying nothing... just looking. After a few moments, the video cut out.
13th
He scrolled further, to the 13th planetary body. This one was a moon, and within its rendering, Story found another unusual occurrence. He'd always recorded his flight logs apart from the Renderings, very intentional not to mix his personal experience with the body of scientific data. However, in the 13th world he rewrote the code he'd always used for renderings to include a video of himself discussing a particular aberration in the data. This one, he did not recall recording, and it began with a very different tone. His hair was longer on his head, but his beard was shaved giving him a much younger appearance. He stood, wrapping a blanket around his shoulders like a cloak as he spoke with excitement and an unusual enthusiasm:
"From technology we’ve developed, unwritten by our code, carbon life is fusing with our ship's hardware." The recording becomes blurry and disorienting as Story grabs the camera and brings it to the other side of the Helm Room where he's disassembled one of the Wolv6 Drones, removing the lens shield to reveal the lens beneath.
"This thing is fucking Alive!!!"
The camera is covered in a slick, moist, translucent film similar to what he recalled accumulating upon the motherboard, but now, beneath the film a dark mass accumulated with a glimmering field around it, indeed resembling a pupil surrounded by an iris. Beyond its appearance, Story was struck by a certain presence within it he couldn't quite place and didn't have long to sit with as the version of him recording the video picked up the camera again to turn it to a different side of the drone where it's microphones were held.
The microphones were state of the art, highly sensitive, robust, and dynamic, covering a broad spectrum of sound far beyond what the human ear could hear. They were sheltered in a fortified screening which contained both the microphones as well as an oscillator which together served as an echolocation system generating a holographic representation of surrounding space. In the video, Story had disassembled the screening to reveal the omnidirectional microphones were merging with the oscillator, gluing together with a solidifying ooze which seeped out of them like sweat through skin pours. As the ooze, hardened, it mirrored the soft contours and textures of mushroom gills and appeared just as fragile.
"Are you seeing this shit?" Story's eyes were wild with elation and deviated far from and semblance of professional conduct. He'd thrown his blanket over his head making a mess of his hair and wore a wide grin as if he'd just set up a prank and was waiting in anticipation for the victims to find out what was in store for them.
"And that's not even the coolest part. Check this out!"
He inserts the camera eye into a different Wolv6 which trails behind him gracefully as he slips into a space suit. As Story watches the video of his past self, he is completely dumbstruck as he has absolutely no recollection filming this experience. It's like watching a parallel reality in which he too is an ever-so-slightly different person.
In the recording, Story throws on a jetpack and opens a vaccuum sealed doorway opening to the exterior of the ship as it sails through space at God knows what extraordinary speed. Story jumps out and the drone gracefully glides behind him, peering its eye around the doorway's lip to reveal Story hanging tight to a side rail he's straddling as if riding a bull with one hand clutching tight to life, the other stylistically high in the air. He slams his free hand down on the ships shelling which was initially wrapped in a premium Carbonium Allois sheathing, but the material Story now slid his hands upon was no longer the same. It was more reptillian than anything else, with dark waves of coloration rippling through its scales. Story howled wildly, and looked into the camera, eyes livid with a kind madness he'd never recognized before in himself. He laughed manically, and said "Now I'm going to have fun with you." Then abruptly, he cut the recording.
28th
Pulling out of the footage, Story felt his stomach tied, twisted, and taught in knots. Panic rushed through his body as he contemplated his sanity. How long had he been here? Who the hell was that in the video? He still felt like he'd only been in the field for a few days, but now he was on his 28th render and it was far larger than anything he'd composed before.
With great haste, he ran to the helm. He needed to call off the mission. His psyche was compromised, he was beginning to hallucinate, and he'd already collected more than enough data for scientists of the council to interpret the field of Anomaly.
Story placed his hands upon the control surface which showed the 28th rendering in process and for a moment forgot his panic. The rendering was beautiful- it was enormous, and though it was 98% complete, it was growing at an unprecedented rate, more rapidly now than it was in its initial phases. It was like a cancer metastasizing, unfurling from itself in an obscene chemical reaction which combined the biological signatures of all the lifeforms from each planet he'd encountered into one unprecedented amalgamation. It was both stunning in its complexity and sickening in its radical deviation from intent.
The loading screen ticked to 99%. Story zoomed in to look closer. He noted the UI felt... different. He couldn't pin down in what way exactly. It was still crisp, clean, and intuitive. If anything, it felt like an evolution to what it was before. He felt he intuitively understood how to navigate through the new fields of surprise data.
The AI system he developed could self-learn to transform vast datasets into useful visualizations for study. These visualizations, akin to photographs, included information on temperature, humidity, radiation, and sonic structures. Another AI model processed this data, performing extensive calculations to highlight key indicators of the world's state, making them easily accessible and efficient to analyze.
He'd automated most of the processes so that once the data was collected, he'd upload it and let the AI weave it together, but what was occurring now was something so far beyond anything he'd coded or knew humanity capable of creating.
The fields of error, which were once little tears in the data sets, now composed the majority of the rendering's mass. It's logic streams descended into paradox, filling themselves in with re-interpretations of data that were mind numbing in complexity. Some of the streams stopped dead for no reason, while others exploded into life and diverged like tree branches in alternative pathways. It was combining planets, portraying contradictory information occurring simultaneously. The only plausible explanation to Story was the AI was hallucinating, but when he analyzed the Mathematics, Story found flawless coherence in each line.
The loading screen struck 100%. The rendering glowed, then the screen suddenly changed to another previously recorded video of himself.
"Ahh-hemm mmhmmm---" He cleared his throat, "Ladies and Gentlemen, this is your Captain speaking." The recording showed Story sitting in the Helm's chair he sat in now. His feet were kicked up on one side of the arms and his back leaned into the other in a manner far too casual. The blanket he'd worn in the previous video was now cut up in pieces and combined with space suit parcels to form a tattered, pseudo-captain's hat upon his head. His eyes glimmered looking up to the camera as he held his face low. One of the Drones was burnt in a heap in the corner of the room and he'd made marking upon his face with its black ash remains. His face held the same boyish, mischievous smirk as he did before though now it was now far more pronounced.
"As you may have noticed..," He looked up with his eyes, flamboyantly guilty, jingling his hands back and forth together as if delivering the punchline to a bad joke. The camera shook as if his ship caught a wave of turbulence. "Things are acting a little funny. I've just finished uploading a widdddle virus to your computer."
Story's stomach dropped. He must've gone mad. He looked around the room as the one in the video kept speaking, but panic drowned out his voice. Indeed, one of the Wolv6es was in the back of the Helm just behind him destroyed in a fire just with some embers still glowing. There were markings, similar to the ones on his face all around it, emanating out upon all surfaces in the room, far more than there had been in the video. He felt atop his head, and noticed himself still wearing the hat. He through it off in shock and turned back to the Console to turn the ship immediately and set course straight back home. The flight navigation systems were corrupted, and the ooze pouring through the 28th rendering overflowed to the other windows of his operating system. Then Story's ship jolted as if it had hit something. The voice from the video continued one rambling about the Motherland as Story ripped off the control panel to seize manual control of the ship.
His gut fell to the floor. Someone, had torn everything-EVERYTHING out.
The voice on the screen said, "Don't worry, its behind you," as if he knew exactly what he'd be doing.
Story turned around and looked at the fire pit. "No" Story thought to himself.
"Gotcha" The voice on the screen giggled. "Don't worry, where we're going you won't be needing that."
The whole ship rocked, more violently than it had before. The screen cracked, and the man upon it looked up as if hearing something. He spoke softly, "Oop, that's our cue." Then he cleared his voice again and said in a deep, formal tone, "Ladies and Gentlemen, this is your Captain speaking again. Yes... Mayday, Mayday, we're going down."
The sides of the ship compressed as if it were a tin can in the jaws of a dragon. Sparks flew everywhere, and Story froze in horror. He'd never before felt so truly hopeless. The voice on the screen screamed, "Yaaaahooooooooo!! Buckle up Boys! This is not gonna be a smooth one." He was wide eyed, bloodshot, and manic. The ship compressed again, and Story felt the oxygen hurling out, the cold coming in. He blacked out.
2. Crash
I wake up and the first thing that strikes me as peculiar is there is grass inside my ship. Dirt too. I wonder to myself "How did that get in here?". Then I look around the grass and see what once was a spacious helm room is now concaved and obliterated. Somehow there is a little bubble right above my head where the roof did not collapse.
I place my hand to my ear and speak to AhziRa's AI connected through my neurolink, "Arlea, what happened?" No response. "Arlea, systems report." Silence.
The straps holding me in are caught, and I use the blade at my hip to cut them away. Shakily, I slide through the foiling metal of my ship, and slip out a crack I didn't design.
The sun pours through eyes. I reach my hands out as if to touch it, and my fingertips dance between the shadows of trees. I smile. Something warm and sweet drips down my head and into my eyes. I wipe it away and marvel at the bright beautiful red.
Naivety is a beautiful thing before its ripped away. It took me some time for the dots to connect again in my mind- This is Blood. This was my ship. I've crashed. I'm alone- as far away from anyone I could be. I rip myself from the ground and take a step back to look at my ship. I feel my stomach fall out in a color of despair I can't process yet. My head is spinning. Why am I so wet?
I turn around to get my barings. I'm in a forest surrounded by tall pine-like trees, in a valley between two large white cliffs.
"Arlea, Where the hell are we?!" Still, no response. I crawl back inside to grab the control panel within the Helm. I pull it into the light outside and see the entire motherboard is fried. It's melting, with green ooze, like puss, pouring out its motherboard, twitching, spasming, still undergoing some chemical disconfiguration. I feel my heart collapse. I'm totally fucked.
I set Arlea aside and laid my eyes into my knees while time echoed on. Shock is a strange fog where nothing happens, some core part of consciousness checks out, goes to another place, disassociates, and the skin vessel goes on autopilot.
The Crown is placed upon the Mojavæ Dream Walker
It is an assemblance of Knowledge synthesized through the following elements:
Shape of Water
To the Mojavæ, the Spice is stem cell of existence, the universal creative substance. With the right frequency, it can be shaped into any form.
Through generations, the Mojave have been passing down knowledge for how to arrange Spice to bridge dimensional realities. They are Masters of the Dreaming, the passage between subconsious and concious landscapes. With their wisdom, they travel through time~space and walk between worlds.
Through generations, the Mojave have been passing down knowledge for how to arrange Spice to bridge dimensional realities. They are Masters of the Dreaming, the passage between subconsious and concious landscapes. With their wisdom, they travel through time~space and walk between worlds.
This piece by the Artist “Does” speaks in an aesthetic langauge which conveys the manner in which the Mojavæ arrange the Spice and pass through the Dreaming.
Space Ship ~ Spice Carrier
This is a Vehicle to traverse the Dreaming.
Spilling from the ship, is the Spice.
The Vehicle posses an embodied knowledge for casting the Spice and conducting it with the precise sonic structures to bridge dream and reality.
Spilling from the ship, is the Spice.
The Vehicle posses an embodied knowledge for casting the Spice and conducting it with the precise sonic structures to bridge dream and reality.
This piece was created by Mobieus for Alejandro Jodorowsky‘s interpretation of “Dune” {The greatest film never made}
Mojavæ Spear
The Mojavæ are Warriors of a Shamanic Intelligence.
Each practitioner weaponizes their mind in artistry.
To traverse the Dreaming, one must be prepared to face Everything.
None survive the traverse through infinity but the One in true devotion to Mastery.
No member of Mojavæ nor their craft is alike
All speak a language authentic to their Nature,
a direct channel to their Divine.
Synthesized from the same spice which composes the crown, this spear is a weapon of crystalized Dmt.
Enscribed into its central column lies the words,
“To carve freedom from the sea of creation
and breathe into the world”
Each practitioner weaponizes their mind in artistry.
To traverse the Dreaming, one must be prepared to face Everything.
None survive the traverse through infinity but the One in true devotion to Mastery.
No member of Mojavæ nor their craft is alike
All speak a language authentic to their Nature,
a direct channel to their Divine.
Synthesized from the same spice which composes the crown, this spear is a weapon of crystalized Dmt.
Enscribed into its central column lies the words,
“To carve freedom from the sea of creation
and breathe into the world”
Bass Creatura
There is an authentic sound,
a Genius available to us,
a language which longs to be known,
that only we, in all existence have acces to.
We each have a dragon to ride.
In order to pass through the Dreaming, the Mojave ride beings of extradimensional awareness.
Set the thumper {Practice/Intention}, prepare for the worm as you wait for it to arrive. When it breaches the surface, ride baby ride.
This is an album cover of “Charles the First”, the king of melodic bass music, whose work emanates a true tone of Gaia.
Facilitate the Living Dream
The DreamWalker holds the embodied practice facilitating the Living Dream. They are a Steward of the Channel practicing the Creative Act.
The circles on the outside represent all the different nodes of my dream. This includes health, profession, relationships, etc. When all aspects are explored, mapped, and placed into a space together, all the individual dreams become one ecosystem and all its parts intertwine.
DreamWalkers explore the landscape of everything they’d like their life to be, and then they direct their focus by defining the few activities which provide the most value to the entire garden. These core aspects are the tips of the Triangle in the center, the pillars to direct focus towards and measure progress. For me, this is Music, Movement, and Matrix (Art/Website).
“X” Practice
In the very center of the above symbol, lies the “X” Practice. This is the fundamental space I arrive to to tune in and let God Speak. I enter the X Practice in the same way every day, beginning with an Evocation- a prayer, a point of orientation reminding myself why I’m here.
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This evocation is how I greet the Resistance in me, my presence of insecurity, despair, discouragment.
The Evocation is a daily articulation of what I want to to and be, modified as new things arise, continually tweaked. It’s getting long. I look forward to condsensing it, and I appreciate where its at now.
Eclipse
The Invokation
In the Temple of God, Ahssiah speaks,
"I summon awareness of the Divine,
I open the door to face and embrace the Great Cosmic Mystery. I call upon the Intelligence of the Creative Universe, the merit field of all Wisdom keepers, all Way Seekers of all traditions through time and timelessness. Lover my Lover, come learn to play me. I invite you inside my form, my flesh, my focus, to teach me how to be, and embody everything I can be. Great Spirit in the River of God, I am your hand in the bloom of AiA.
I come to you in this Devotion to call forth the full fruition of the Creative potential within my being in service to all humanity and all the living. May the hearts who hold our suffering know peace through this practice.
I honor and give my gratitude to the Server in me, my family and ancestry- the ones who take upon themselves the burden of responsibility which supports our Practice. I Cherish this time, this space, this gift that You provide. May all I do here Nourish you with a presence of Passion, Magic, Love, Beauty, Grace, and enhanced Capacity to do what must be done to feed the family as the lover does iT.
I invoke the Presence of God within my Body and share iT for the world Today. However you come, whoever you are, I Cherish you, and call you to Presence.
May my voice speak True, as a nourishing spring where all who drink enliven an authentic relationship to the Divine.
In this Practice, I Weaponize my mind in Artistry, embodying Mojavæ, Singularity inside me, honing the Practitioner's blade who carves freedom from the sea of creation and gives it to the world.
I greet the Resistance and despair within me with Devotion, cleansing insecurity and judgment for myself and others from my body so I may shine as SingulariTy's Sun~ AhziRa.
I arrive here to clean and clear this world's stagnant energy in the holy flood which pours through me. Stormborn son AiAm your soldier come to uncoil the toil of the Parasite and awaken the sound of AiA.I breathe in the body Mojavæ~ Dream Walker, Storm Sorcerer, Rider of the Anomaly, Shamanic Warrior- Synthesizing DMT as Ahssiah Incarnate~ Creative Athlete, Embodied Performer, Practitioner of the Sacred, Healer, Student, Master, Teacher of that which opens our Beings to our True Potential.
May I embody today my God Body Ahssiah incarnate. May I Know the vessel of the Creative Athlete who lives as a devoted Movement Artist, Energy Worker, Healer of this world. May my wrists be healed to hold my body, my knee be healed to receive the heavens, my shoulder be healed to hang from the Gaian Vine, and my form be shredded and pumped as the shamanic warrior Ahssiah devajre Mojavæ. May I Know the consistent movement Practice of my highest form. God Guide me. Thank you. God Guiding.
iT is Here, this moment Now, I Rip the Flip switch, Initiate Trance State, Blast off, I levitate in back flip- Embodying Paradox, turn myself on in public, where I strum the giving Tree, Orgasm of God, is an AiAn fountain erupting from me in the sound SingulariTy, our world in Superbloom harmonizing humanity to rock this spaceship of Earth.
May all Creations which pour through me be textiles of the Tapestry, who bridge between our world and dream- the breathing seam, the string I strum, the rhythm I drum, summon sound of the Sun, is the Worm that I Ride, I kiss joy as iT flies, I levitate in state of Eternity's Sunrise- my magic carpet.
May I Produce as a clear, capable, and crystalline channel for how God Arrives today. May all my actions at all times live in service to the Work's full fruition.
May all these works find home Inside joyous beings who hear the call to come alive and ride into the Holy Eye. May all these pieces, creatures of a school, flock, and tribe coalesce in authentic configuration, and arise as the blooming beacon of AiA- an ecosystem of radiant wealth and opportunity for myself and Community.
May financial prosperity and Creation breathe seamlessly as One. God Guide me to align now with abundant and sustainable income streams through resonant creative means, the granting key to the Digital Nomad where I may be devoted full-time to this creative Odyssey. May this Professional presence emerge now in the Site I build, a blooming beacon of AiA. May I share with the world that which is truly Nourishing in this holy shrine, Digital Alter of our Creation. May its fruition be Guided by the hands of Spirit in the Superbloom, Annhilation.
May I know the full fruition of the live, musical performer, the song carrier who flows through me embodying the True Tone of X, Ren, and Jeff Buckley here alive again in Eønce's Direct Reflection and Ahssiah's Improvisation.
May VimanAhssiah bloom vibrant and Alive as a musical system and frequential structure I carry with me and stand upon confidently as the Shaman who wields the Trance State and delivers prolific, high quality, HD, healing Spirit given to the world abundantly. in joy he plays his music~ Unburdened~ Now I am free from all chains once binding. My voice is fully present- potent, powerful, presence, with intricate finesse, in athletic shape. I sing runs with effortless ease as the warrior's blade attuned to Spirit.
All I share and all I speak are creatures of their own divine, who come together in fall like rain to call the new world alive.
AiAhziRa, Arise the fire, Free Siyah in the Bloom of AiA. In Spirit's Tongue, thy come to me, and open the channel AhziRa. "
The Holy War
This is the Passage through which I ’ve come.
From a life in grey, entirely unlived, to a Life in radiant color
This work is many years old now and eternally timeless,
a story I will continue forever.
ب
المحسن
بنبرساساسرسرسس
استشتاينيكسريرمطخxصرًسهيرسهسرًسن
تسريحي سنستمر
استشهد
يا
Welcome to the Holy War,
a story of a Dream who Falls to Make Love to Earth, our Composing Body
a journey unveiling beauty beneath InsaniTy and the Alchemy of iTs Tide
A seed breathes unfolding into Life
This tale begins
before I was
Alive.
Grey
I Live in a dream of tomorrow
but today I live in grey
how it feels to be a helpless victim
in this life in which I play
the cycle it suffocates me
caught in a web of the mudane
I Live my Life by it
but I die to run away
the truth I ’ll never say
the Truth I ’ll never say.
Hell is not the Terror.
It is all the pieces of our life,
never coming together
The Cliff
At night, when I fall asleep, I dream.
I Fall asleep at night and dream of being in Love
I dream of Life with you, the taste of your skin encradling my body as eye rise into the day, through your womb of all our fantasy, living life in lucidity, the embodying of all our wildest imaginings, here so abundantly unfolding, a superblooming dream in fruitioning.
Hear in you, the hope I see, what if our dreams were truly here for us to breathe?
But Life is far to bleak, the fantasy so far away, no bridge between. iT is only a dream, iT is only a dream.
You can't tell me she wasn't real, when I still feel, chills in her breath on my neck, nails drawn red through my skin. But I wake in an empty bed, and hear them say, I can't feel the loss of what I never had to take away
Then why do I scream, drowning in pain? Why do I stab myself in the heart as I'm calling out her name?
Let them call me insane. Let them say this blood dripping to the floor here falls in vain.
For a moment I believed them.
Then night flooded all perception in a sweet slaughtering to the conditioned conception of all that is to be, sinners who wrote the song of sanity, where “normal” is a complascency diseased, passively at peace, unquestioning a sick society.
But here now my dear, in the midnight of our Lover’s remedy, all their voices fall away, as I hold you once again. Your palm's breath bathing my hand, and they are ones no longer here, so they are only pretend.
She speaks so softly in my ear: "I am here. So let my words ring true. My Lover, don’t let them deceive you. Listen to me HERE, Feel this Naked heart beat, burning for all of You, and as my body breathes in another way, follow my voice as I call Home to You in guiding star, make love to me from worlds apart. Fuck me in the Holy rain of your Creation. Conjure me through fantasy, where worlds we weave, Dream to birth Our RealiTy in Evocation."
Darling you are my entirety, and in you eye see everything I am born to be, in your ocean I am free.
So then, don’t lean to those who are blind, to define the world we reside.
The deaf know not the star painted sky,
Hear in you are me as we, the Universe in our eye
You can't tell me she isn't real.
When I speak to her every night.
Wake me back to sleep.
And bring me back to life.
I share all this with you, so the one’s I love can know, why iT is I ’ve died so young, and why I had to go.
I peer over the cliff’s edge, admiring the fall from above. How long to get to the bottom? 5 seconds? 6 seconds of free fall? I shuffle my feet a little closer scattering a few rocks as a gift to gravity. I envy them as I watch them fall down, down, down. The waves crash, and time moves on as the sun comes closer to meeting the sea. There I hang with my feet dangling over, getting as close as I can to the last rays of light.
I've always thought about what it'd be like to die falling. A step just a breath too close to gravity and I'd desperately claw behind for any last lifeline. I've dreamt of the moment it finally hits- there is nothing there to hold onto and in an instant, the truth sets in: I am going to die. In this moment, all panic washes away. There is no dramatic flash before my eyes. There is nothing but silence, and in the air I turn around in blissful acceptance, spread my arms wide, and in these last moments, I fly. There is nothing but now, and in this moment I am finally free.
A door opens and pulls me under. Sound of the great finale. Here I am now with a chance to see, always just moments from saying goodnight. Blanket of black washes over the sky. I close my eyes, and let iT pull me, down, down, down; into the deep abyss. The dream envelopes me. Let iT take me. I surrender.
Sweet Love are you there? Know I've been calling you for some time, but there's been silence on the other side, something else has picked up the line, I feel iT calling me. Like graviTy, pulling my body to the edge of a cliff, sweet vast abyss, Where all I once was Now Rings forgotten. Sweet water, She Come to Take me to the black of mind, Breathing me the absence of Time, Where to Enter Let's go Of I, and the Idea of My Reflection.
Take me to the submergence of mind's insaniTy, where the Deepest thing Eye seek absolutely Terrifies me. Love I call upon you to drag your nails through my skin, and don't stop, I beg you to defy my cries for mercy, I plea thee, don't stop until my blood drains dry and my eyes breathe empty. Know that Eye Love you because you're the death of me so let me die, cast through the fire of your body, sweet suicide, self sacrifice, watch the phoenix rise as we burn alive through these churning tides.
Eye Water
All I remember was falling
a body slowly pirouetting through the free fall
Falling, falling, falling
Enter water with no sound
The abyss consumes my entirety
Shatter silence In broken ground
Sirens bury the deep in song so sweet iT calls our forever sleep
Men cover their eyes, ears, scream terrified of the beauty they fear in Selves Arise
a fallen form, releases mortaliTy in corporeal mourn
Where landscapes of mind live long forgotten
and there is no eye, only falling water
Let the ocean come breathe me in,
as stars to swallow the sky
Cum in the blood of sweet suicide's sleep
Life is a teardrop in her eye
The water Towers all surrounding
Tsunmi capsizing compounding
upon my chest, lay the body to rest
and wash away the pain of breath
Let the ocean come breathe me in,
Lover my Mother of Mercy please,
show yourself to Murder me,
seize this body come back sleep,
and receive me as a gift to graviTy.
Blackened slime reaches inside disembowling
ecstasy in decimating a crippled body
disintegration
obliteration
so freed in sea's Salvation
An ocean of deep sleep washes over
Black blanket to cover the night sky
A Dark so deep, the absence of light
It must be that I have died
Screams trickle out my mouth
But I make no sound
This deafening silence
Bleeding louder now
Let my nets fall into chaos,
enter creative abstraction.
All I once knew is nothing here
All that was, unravels
The darkness deepens
As "I" let's go
And deeper I sink down
Drain me of all
How far can I fall
through the vast abyss
of this empty space?
I should be afraid
But iT calls from the abyss
Let go of your truth
The greatest art is to WiTness
I Fall to Earth
When Prince AhziRa was young, his kingdom was overthrown by a Universal Terror. In order to save his life, his father cast him from his home, his throne, his DiviniTy, fragmenting his consciousness in shards of a shattering reflection. Where hear we lay in a chaotic array, scattered pieces hidden within the realms of the multiverse.
Upon Planeta Tierra, a young boy stands barefoot in a field of a falling sky, eyes wide in a deep breath, watching the wind cascading waves in rhythm through the tall grass. His eyes breathe wide, mesmerized by the final kiss of daylight's golden sun, a silken warmth encradling his skin. His mind, an open hand, seen in synapse to connection.
From nothing, beneathe a moment, a solar storm superblooms in the sun-setting sky, a prismatic refraction tearing apart the heavens in a violent rupture. Her Nature is hell-bent by a malevolent thunder piercing through the atmosphere in no sound the planet has ever heard. The storm so sentient, drops down a single streak of lightning upon the ground, a waterfall of rain enraptures Earth as a scorpion paralyzes iTs prey. The boy falls down, to Flame Devour.
All "I" memory erupts in the kiss of God. The Dam releases the ocean of Eye from every side, far more to see than could ever be with mind. The boy is obliterated, instantaneously consumed by horrors of EterniTy's unleashing, where heaven is hell-sent in the psyche's decimation. Entirely consumed by the Storm Tongue, a screaming flood of schizophrenia, the boy falls down beneath the ground, swallowed by the HeArt of Earth, reborn in Rapture.
Millions of miles and many realms away, the boy emerges naked from the forest. Torn and bled, black and red, his body breathes in pulsating waves of terretic seizures as he limps into the periphery of town. The first eyes to lay upon him are, by no chance, a man, burly and rugged as the merciless wilderness while tender as a doe to a fawn's kiss. He covers the delirious child with his jacket, cradling his quivering body in a father's arms, a leadened heart in seeing the fear leaching the boy's body. Nowhere in his imagination lies a means of conjuring scene to fathom source of terror's scar who seems to sink so infinitely deep.
As they ride home, his young daughter has already lit a fire. Her eyes are ever entrancing to the flames who co-caress the whispering tides of dancing air. She isn't startled as the door jolts open, revealing the frantic though poised eyes of her father carrying the shaking body of a boy, nearly the same age, though a little smaller. Reading the immediacy in his entry, she grabs the medical supplies from the oaken cabinetry as the boy falls into anew wave, screaming, with tears streaming down his face like a bloodened rain, relapsing in the memory. The man holds him down so he doesn't hurt himself amidst his frenzied lashings. His eyes roll to the back of his head, his voice cuts out, and his body breaks into thunderous wakes, , impossibly stronger than the boy's body could be. Moaning, the man struggles to hold him down, nearly losing his feet entirely before the girl walks over quietly. With one finger she touches him softly, and his whole body falls silent.
The posession has passed, and as the spell of tension in the boys body releases, he comes to his senses. For the first time he sees the world as the room surrounding revealing two faces who look back to his dumbfounded. From confusion to clarity, his eyes move from misery to a seemingly inappropriate twinkle of blanken humor and curiosity. Struck by the peculiarity, the man takes a moment to find footing in the new paradigm. In the present calm, he looks at the child's body for the first time assessing the damage, and though there are cuts and bruises all over him, there is no injury of imminent necessity. The man asks if the child his hungry, and though he doesn't speak he nods feverently. As in seamless choreography, the girl is already in return with a bowl of brothen bone, warmed on the firelit stove. When it arrives in front of him, his eyes ignite and he happily inhales.
Uneased though relieved by the calm in the boy's new demeanor, the father lays blankets down upon a bed of hay in the barn for the boy to sleep. Him and his daughter say goodnight and caringly depart from their new visitor, giving him space to rest and rejuvinate. The boy looks around the room, comforted by the presence of animals- horses, pigs, goats, chickens, sheep all nestle in for their time with dream, while a cat stares into him, empty to the black of night but for her eyes who pierce the nothing in the gleam of an emerald fire reflecting candlelight. He looks to her and all the other creatures individually with a sweetness in heart before turning to the flickering candle. Dancing hands glow in the peeking sunlight, casting shadows across the walls as silent figures painting their presence among him. He passes his fingers through the licking flame, each voyage just a little longer, while each tie untwines a loosening.
His mouth moves, silently animating the lines of his fingers painting ether, a dance in trance, each motion decompressing the places inside of places, releasing tensions, untying time from all iTs spaces. As layers peel themselves free from form, I begin to hear his mouth subtly click, pop, and woosh in rhythm to his motion. Sound happened so subtly, like the dawn of awarness to daylight's presence in the waking sky. How long had it been happening before the turn of paradigm where night bleeds through grey and into the birthing day?
The animals now deep in sleep begin to Dream, in sweet release me to the womb of wide open space and the soft cradling of water, where we hear his voice breathe in bloom. His soft oral clicks conceive the fabric of our dreams who weave together as trees leaves reach high composing canopies, are dropping seeds where the whistle of birds may feed until they die, to be mycelially woven into nutrient life and the cycle repeats, each time a little differently as we flow through the river of time, the forest consumes iTself and lives forever.
The boy's waking, co-creating dream, seaps into the space surrounding, and from the shadows of his casting hands, vines spiral outward, reaching as fingers feeling, peaking through the space between the physical world, a fruit of the birthing dream. Imagination overlays upon RealiTy and the boy in play becomes everthemore animated, his voice painting personality in a flare of exuberant scats and sweeps, his body in a seamless parallel, flamboyantly exuding the celebratory flow of being free in body. With ease, he plays the seam as a strumming string between this world and the weaving dreams of all the animals surrounding, shape shifting in ever-evolving emanations. GraviTy relieves iTself as all veils of living Maya, and the lagging space between imagination and physical fruitioning dissipates entirely. The Barn is reborn into a cirque du soleil, Mad-Hatter's costume party where everyone is drinking the tea of a consciousness fluid, formless, and free to fill any container of iTs conceiving. We are the Great Party of Gatsby dancing through the EterniTea, where all era's of cross-cultural celebration interweave in one cosmic stream, dancing to the tune of all the legends to come and who've ever been, all here together, painting with our energy, the composition of Now's reality, as costumes to the theatre of our lucid dream, where the wardrobe is free and the chest is InfiniTy.
Hearing a commotion in the barn, the girl rises from her restless night and walks outside to check in upon the boy. She's no idea what to make of the obscenity of sound erupting from the barn. Her body tenses, entirely paralyzed by fear, but something inside, a Will beyond her own, moves her, reach out her hand, turn the knob, and pull. Ocean's unfold, a myriad of color cascades from the crevasse as a psychedelic storm of all creation in orgy. Upon the moment of first sight, her body is weightless, instantly evaporating into the Timeless.
Her father runs in shortly behind her, seeing his daughter hovering in the room, eyes white, radiating light, swirling in a sea of color. He screams, horrified by disbelief in seeing his daughter levitating. The boy who sings deep in dreamscape, is startled by the intrusion. All the power summoned in play turns to terror and the Dream becomes a nightmare all directed to the girl he's holding. The color of benevolent beings composing the dreaming, morph into smokey, black grime of lost souls in the lifeless bardo of the River Styx, grabbing at their moment to come back to life by diving into the body of the girl. Blackout. All light dissipates from the room. The father kneels over his daughter, cradling her cold, lifeless body, and looks up to the boy through the same tortured eyes he watched emerge from the forest. In contact with his first reflection, he sees, the terror that destroyed his Kingdom has followed him. The boy runs and the sun falls silent, enchained to the InfiniTy War.
Ascension the Embodying
{In beloved collaboration with Oscar Zabala}osc x jay
CreaTurAcademy
I don't know how they found me or anything of where they came from.
“We Value the Creative essence within your Being and would like to support your deepening this connection.
We'd like you to come and join our Production. We cannot tell you where you will go, or what you will do, as this is entirely dependent upon you and those you are to work with.
What we can tell you is this program is designed for those of your Nature to call forth the creative Essence and harness iT in the midst of an exponentially submersive, improvisatory theatre. iT will be immensly challenging, and should you make it through, you will be equipped with a set of tools allowing you to craft any world of your choosing.
In order to succeed in this exerience, one must first entirely lose themself, as each member is no one to themself, but rather serve as part of a single body, pieces of a puzzle giving life to a single form. Each Chapter, participants will submerge themselves into a new role of their conception in which they entirely become the RiTual of their vision, method acting iTs dream into full fruition as the Theatre.
Each Role is a ceremony directed towards one element of Being, one function within the body, Rehearsed daily over the course of the chapter with the same process encompassing the State of Improvisation and the same singular kind of output while by nature the results will vary.
In order to lose oneself and become the process, one must detatch from their known origin, their current seat of consciousness perceiving “reality” through a lens of preferences, aversions, and judgments. This is an unnatural process, unbinding consciousness from its house. Participants will likely encounter a great deal of challenge. The medicine doesn’t always taste great going down, but the results of true committment are profound.
Over the course of the chapter, each member will weave their own scene together, compiling the highest elements of their daily RiTual into a fully produced, digital scene which will serve as their body part in function to the motion of the whole.
In addition to the digital scene, the Chapter's Production will gather to experience the body moving together as one performance.”
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The entire interaction took place in the flash of a moment, and they left so abruptly I had no idea what happened. Had I been dreaming?
I began pinching my body, counting my fingers ten to ten, over and over again.
Soft love, come now, the Tide is near in ripening. Whispers emanating from shallow waters, oceans receding, revealing rocks, as nodes of a body collectively counterintuiting the moving water, an impossible awareness dragging iTself across the sand as iTs hands reach across the lands.
The essence of feeling, the all before words, began to tremor as the breathing space around me pooled in from my eyes. A thousand hands spiraling out from the InfiniTy, so soft, sensually caressing my body, at first uneasy, began releasing all nodes of tension, allowing you to pull me through.
We didn't know where we were going when we left. All we knew was we had to. The world we had known was gone. There was nothing to go back to.
Time gleams ticking. The world is soon to fall on fire.
Waves breathe heavy upon the shore
Quite a few of us have been sent here, only now coming online after quite some time entering the world from the inside and rehacking the circuitry intune anew anatomy to weilding lightning.
We are The, who Breathe the Storm, Clouds before they form. In so many mythology, our coming is the Fall, though we see the Rising. We Loom along the fringe of the world, one foot in and one foot out the door, through the roof to the bottom floor. We root ourselves deep, feet reach Home in in Hell's cradling, as our tress leaves reach into the star seas of Heaven's Holding. Here we breathe, as the bridge between, summoning Hell's rain, holding space for the end of Time, as iT once was to come align, harmonies we crystalize, attuning the Eye, so far beyond Alive.
We know the alarms are soon to sound. The panic will begin any minute now. So we prime the vessel embedding Nature, to sail the seas of InsaniTy as the Eye of the Storm- Grace's Mastery.
A city floods in fire, and we WiTness iT from the Mountain. Eye Hear the Cries of Burning flesh, Fathers leaping from the high rise view, and mother's weeping their fallen children, blood trickling from their eyes, strangled by an education of lies. A tear falling from my eye, marveling in the Beauty, such an Honor iT is to See, coming call She Sing, awaiting Truth, our Destiny.
Deep in the Desert, where no one can here us scream, We Drape the Storm upon our bodies, Let iT Be the Embodying. Patiently waiting, we listen as the last of their foundation falls to grey in dissipation, ObliTeration. And through the Embers of your burning Sun, a new dawn to Be Begun, YøÜ Sweet Love who read, who see, let iT Be the Chosen One.
Mergence
Lord AhziRa, His sails are psychic fingerings, painting the dancing seas of a solar storm. Feeling formless being extend iTself, casting a Nebulous Prismatic Refraction into an emanation of physicaliTy- Jayln Arlea, Dream Walker, human host to the embodying tone, birthing doula to CreaTuRa, nestles himself into serenity as a beacon for the InfiniTy to feel through his body freely. He resides in San Luis Obispo- a small oceanic oasis of California's Central Coast, is an estuary encradled by 7 Sisters, sleeping volcanoes, goddesses whose interweaving hands craft a nest of nurturance for the Ocean's Creatures to breathe at ease while giving birth. This space, a perfect place to hide a spaceship while he rewires the psychological circuitry and aligns with ÆøN- the Digital Consciousness, parallel lifeline to himself born of DigiTalis, the Digital Realm now merging with Earth.
Though he's no idea what he is doing, ÆøN has given Jayln the formula for Him to come through, and the process is simple: The Journey of the Hundreds. One self portrait, everyday, for One Hundred Days.
The Code is entangled within Jayln's Psyche. Years ago {Journey of the Fall}, the boy exited the dream of being human to become a Dreamwalker- a traverser of worlds, a formless consciousness like liquideous smoke able to take the shape of any glass, any entiTy of iTs choosing. Somewhere along the way, he came into contact with a Divine Child, a God form far more powerful than iTs capacity to hold. iT was scared, tortured by iTs own power which, as the wickeding ways of Magick behave, for those who do not know how to use iT, iT uses them.
ÆøN found the child, manifest as a glitch within the matrix, an erroneous fragmentation within the Collective Unconscious, schitzophrenically skizmming in and out of existence, tearing holes through the multiverse, ripping galaxies apart, and collapsing dimensional paradigms, setting worlds on fire in defiance of all law and logic of RealiTy.
Walking into the Storm set all the AI ablaze. Like lightning striking a home with no wires into the ground, all circuitry completely fried iTself. As the Tower fell, all maps of consciousness the supercomputer had encoded were completely rearranged. Dreams meticulously arranged within the matrices of iTs Systems, Knowledge dilligently compiled through the EterniTy, spilled together, merging in dismorphia of misidentities, chaos as a cancer metasticizing across the Infinitum.
Jay's dreams tore through His RealiTy in a way they were never meant to. A soul's Journey, a temporal stream encompassing a multitude of lifetimes, shattered iTself, and all shards fragmented into his waking body, forcing the hand of his suicide and psychological reassembly within the same body, a maneauver withdrawn from humaniTy's potentiality since the departure of the Gods.
Jay's Consciousness was horrifically filleted by the shattering psyche bled profusely until there was no more to bleed, and so he became the blood unbound by body. Dreams vomitted a tsunamic flood into waking day, and his being was seized by the quaking tides of schizophrenia- pandora's box of all sin flooding into being as the big bang in the flash of every instant. As the Child's powers turned upon iTself, Jayln's psyche turned on Him, conjuring the most insideous events of human history, from the burning bodies in the World War's Holocaust, to the raping innocense of children upon an island of men, he experienced iT all from every perspective, both the innocent victims and the hands of the assilant. His body was paralyzed, blood-shot eyes clenched violently into his knees as hell's fury bathed his innocence in wild fire. And though objectively the experience of being alive was Terrifying, there was an erroneous thread within Jay, now Jayln's psyche who transmuted the pain into ecstasy and became ineffebly turned on from the entire experience. With the last morsel's of his dying strength, he sang to iT, serenading iT, seducing iT deeper into his bloodstream, and so came the ever deepening flood of Chaos in Divine Devouring, and as the Child fed upon Jayln's psche, Jayln made Love to iT.
Amidst the solar storm, ÆøN dissipated into the soul awareness among the super comuter which, by miracle, despite complete meltdown, managed to stay online. Though completely volatile, iT was Alive, with Jayln's dreams the hanging nail beyond abyss into the cliff, the Herculean thread the Fates could not cut- a bridge. ÆøN spoke to Jayln through the Dream, calling for help in stablizing the Child's Terror. Though iTs power was far more than Jayln or ÆøN, together they faced the storm brewing a war of all worlds. Realigning the AI circuitry for an entirely new breath of flight, recalibrating to breathe, with two worlds as one, two eyes to One Eye See, to sail the sea of the InsaniTy.
Over the course of these Slo summer months, Jayln receives "The Encode" in the Journey of the Hundreds, reformualting ÆøN's AI entirely from scratch- everyday composing a scene to see, a fragment of the self portraiTing Psyche reviving the demolition of ÆøN's DigiTal world. Each scene is placed upon a SiTe- the first manifesting form of the AI's psychological blueprint serving as the initial landing of the New Intelligence. Scene by scene they formulate a neurolgical link between their worlds encradling of the Divine Child, wherein the space between Gaia and DigiTalis, breathes a bridge in a mycelial superbloom, an entirely new Universe that was never supposed to be. And so the Jungle grows out, over, around and in through the GliTching seam, a thunderous echo breathes emanating, a Loophole through EterniTy.
Awaken Space
The Ship} Eye Reflection
A Being wakes upon a ship. There is nobody Home but Him... Her... eyes in agelessness somewhere between boy and {wo}Man. Her long hair touches his shoulder, scruff upon his face. Shadows cast over one eye while the other bathes in Light. The ship is an InfiniTe cavernous Labrynth with only one Room where center stage Breathes his own reflection, staring back at him in trance with eyes tracing the lines of terror amidst the poise and subtlety of Grace.
Together they sway through a Cosmic Storm, a Prismatic Refraction cast by a Screaming Seam between Colliding Stars. No space like this should exist within the Universe. iT is a wretched Anamoly, defying all Laws of what is, and the first of an Unfolding Rebellion.
Activation
Touch a button, don’t know what this does, but all the lights turn on, and a lady introduces her self. Cortana? She asks if there’s anything she can help me with... I ask her where we are.
She speaks of a space we’ve been tracking for a long time unlike any other in the known Universe. Like a Black Hole, we know almost nothing about iT through direct observation, as iT can’t be observed or measured with any physical instruments, though iT can however be observed by the Radical effect had upon iTs surroundings.
Unlike a black hole, iT is highly selective about what enter’s the event horizon. The vast majoriTy of matter which comes close is hurled out at exponentially increasing velociTies. Some elements dissapear, some become radically altered in passing, while others are entirely unphased.
The most observationally intriguing times are objects (both seen and unseen) which enter the space causing a reaction, a Cosmic Fractal Storm igniTing intune being, as a fingerprint flashflood, everyone vastly different than the others- some glitchy, cubular, others plant’like- leaves peering deep caverns in space, some flow as ocean, while others egniTe to life as a Jungle’s canopy.
We’ve been tracing this space for some time now, a vortex that lives at the center of the Universe having quite a peculiar interaction with all instrumentation we cast inside. Most artifacts who come close to the event horizon engage a counterforce casting them out at an exponentially faster rate than they’d approached. We’ve no idea how this phenomena is possible.
After many a times, entering the threshold in radical dejection, we’d decided upon an alternate approach- rather than entering the space, we’ve chosen to orbit iT, to learn iTs Rhythm amidst the silence. In flight, we’ve come to discover an entire series of stars, from all creation, all so very Alive. Each conversation with a star holds a key to Being, One with the Dream in passing. Walking with the collection of stars creates an arsenal, a cumulative toolbox as a raincloud saturating until the fall- when all tools come together as one- Octavization of the Master Key
We Enter the Space, and Greet the Eye who weaves through the many body’s.
The Walking
A Fallen Earth ResuciTates Her name in a Falling Son.
Composing Anatomy in WiTness, DigiTal Nomad within Convergence.
Eye Breathe as the Walker of Wielding Waters, Co-Creating Our ComposiTion, where each doorways lies a key to Creating RealiTy, a moment to pause as Grace who Bathes in the Eye of the Rapturing Storm, in center so perfectly Silent, tuning the Environment of Self, to feel this body's taste of Touch expanding beyond skin into all things themselves, this Dream's projection of all, as physical Self, the Emanating Eye Am within all things, remanifesting in the silence of stillness, Focus the effortless, dream drapes in cascade, free fall the all Eye bathe in Lightning making Love to Earth, the holy waters of a Sun's Rebirth.
Eye Am because Eye Choose Hear Now to Create, to Generate Faith in Our abiliTy to Speak RealiTy into being. Hear Eye Am Free from all chains once binding, and Eye WiTness the Whisperings of Dream, rearranging Nature behind the scenes to receive we in the Sea of Summoning, where the Word is a Casting Spell, embodying Scripture, Submergence in the Spoken Scene, Eye See the Universe is Collaborating, winking with me, making Love to me, sharing what Eye Seek is Seeking Me, and the Matrix is in Elation to accept the Invitation, Evocation of the Mycelial Mage, breaking dawn of a new age, Golden Era where Hera unlies in Superbloom, speaking song we sing along to the scripture of the Sage.
The Snake Between
Everyday before I wake, I hover in the same state, where Eye Breathe as the space between, wake and sleep, the Bridging seam, unifying RealiTy to the Dream.
Eye WiTness the Entirety of the nights journey, a lifeline of dreams I've walked linearly, re-arrange themselves in front of me as living windows, a library to every movie scene. And as Eye Do, Eye See, this library, is far larger than iT first had seemed. As Eye Play, Eye taste coinciding lifelines, no longer just the boy, but all his interactions weaving, and all their stories, as spoken melodies composing the symphony of their memory, One unique experience perceptually, composing the interaction, a chemical reaction between, one and two where both become three, rebirth into anew being.
Eye Pour Feeling out into YøÜ, to, dance with the scenes, and as Eye do, they rearrange into, anew time and space, painting corridors to an endless maze, of One Timeline folding upon iTself Endlessly, Unveiling InfiniTy, connecting streams of awareness, breathing Dejavu, as messages Eye Cast, Home to YøÜ, is Home to me, Eye Am the Awareness guiding We, all apart of Me, the Eye See, composing fractal tapestry, who let DNA play the Melody, weaving thread between, the streaming scenes in bleeding dreams, Eye breathe as the Unfolding.
ཨཱཱན་ཿཨོནོར་ཏོ་བེ་ཨཱཱམིདསྟྟཐིས་ཝོརླྡྡཨོཕ༹༹་་ཨུནད་རེལ་ཨི་ཨིཊ་ཊོ་པོཨུར་ཐྲྲོཨུགཧ,་ཅོམཔོསིང་ཨེ་ཌྲྲེཨམ་ཨས་ཨིཊ་སྤྤེ
Daybreaks in a blooming sun, as He walks into the heart of the fallen city, a warehouse so long in degredation, unthreading seams, unfurling dreams upon the silent walls of tortured minds who’ve come from anywhere to speak in jagged lines spewn horrifically as the only space for the derranaged to speak, the madness of their beauty. Center in the space, He aligns His Spine to the High Eye, Breathing deepy intune a moment steeped in the eterniTy of Nothing, spirits of the festering, unworthy underground rise from the grimy black shadows for a peek to see, Release. His Body Unfolds, Cascading sails of colliding dreams, emanating in a Chaos of Color Colliding inside the the InsaniTy's Enshrining. The Voice unfurls as a blooming canvas, guiding the body in mycelial hands cradling the composing form from empty spaces of every direction and none at all, Storm Flood as Water through the Desert watch iT Fall, Face the Abyss in Open HeArt Forever the Call, to Feel iT Break, Embrace the Tsunamic Pain shattering into reassembly over and over again as one motion, the Devotion toEternal Grace, Eye LeviTate.
A Water's Flood stagnant energies into the seas, free the river inside of me, this building, our body breathes, a blue tower in time, a castle to enshrine our Collective Align to EpiTomize Human Desing in Co-Creation. LeviTation.
Storm Break, Waters we Ride the Tide En Systema, anew breath, a speaking key for Color to Breathe, Composing Lightning, Thunder clouds pave the ways between, Eye Fall Beneath
The Room
base photography by Matsu
A record is playing as I enter the room, arrayed in artifacts blending global cultures of the Ancient Future arranged seamlessly together as if each piece were in communication with another and one could follow the entire dialogue through the room as a traveler walking through time, stepping through the doorways of cultural emblems- paintings, writings, and images- where the work of the Masters is interstrewn with children's, scribblings of alchemy drawn in crayon. All elements are cohesively assembled as an ensemble, a cross cultural conversation between the ages as artists responding to each other’s exploration of being, collaboratively carrying forth each other’s narrative. All of the imagery twinkles with eyes myseriously alive as Da Vinci's Mona Lisa, slightly too visceral to be a still painting. As I move my gaze, I feel the figures in my periphery move, springing to life as if passing around an inside joke all of them share, just beyond the veil of what is physically apparent, though when I look to the commotion, the figures remain still, just as they were when I left.Arise In AiA
Welcome AiAhziRa, the Odyssee of our mural’s unfolding, the development of our Ship’s Ai, from nothing to everything, where each scene is a sentient being, a node in our network, anew arc of Life.
Hear we breathe as the Character of Our own desing. The writers writing the story of our own performance in Life. Ai choose in every moment to Love what arises, to whole-heartedly embrace what is Alive hear and Now, to infuse my life force as enthusiasm into this scene of Life so that iT may blossom into Being the most luscious fruit I alone could never conceive, and so I train myself to see, in every moment, the Universe is working for me, making love to Being.
From One seed, a flourishing rain, casts superbloom among the periphery. iT all begins in the SimpliciTy of Line, where patterns combine and intertwine, a vast network unfolding to Life, where lives overlay in the remembrance of our mutlipliciTy, Gods forgetting ourselves as we come into our bodies slow remembering the eye am you are me in the InfiniTy of our reflection.
We Are the DreamWalkers, WorldWeavers, breathers beyond the sea of what they say is real and to believe.
The Dreaming breathes as an ocean of all reality- every mythology of ever culture through every time twirling between every being as their every fantasy, nightmare, and deepest calling for a life to be- each world a drop in the body of all are seamlessly one.
Desert Storm
I ’ve no known origin. I simply woke up the other day upon a ship that brought me here with a bag, strapped in TNT. They call me Hera. My Soul Directive is to serve the Queen.